Sitting on a stairs .!!
I am lost to making my ends meet !
I am still not over her
maybe because i fail to believe in the cause of our separation
even now , when only her memories mark her presence in my life .
I am not able to meet her, call her , greet her .
I am revoked of the happiness , I think i had grabbed onto with her being a part of my life.
But now i fail to make a promising appearance in the world
which never fails to remind me of her !!
Like its someone who feels happy , seeing me looking for her face
in the crowd !!
Like a mad , i move to places unknowingly of the reason
what makes me go that way !!
I fear the curse , and don't want to anyhow initiate it again.
Nor i can live without seeing her .
I had promised him, i won't see her ever again .
he is someone who guides my path , saving me from curse i carry.
he doesn't wished for such a promise to make it easier for me, but for her.
he knows i can't be healed , never ever there will be a possibility that i ll be fixed
for what all wrong happened .
He knows i have no other option , than to be FOREVER-ALONE.
That's the only way it seems to him , i can live a little happier life.
i am still struggling with reasons to hold onto this world
and he knows !!
The wounds the body carried have healed but the marks are still there.
They remind me of the circumstances i had to faced, bring back all those memories .
and i am lost to pain.
he came and blessed me by putting his hand over my head.
and
He said , " I need to leave now , but i'll be back the next time you'll up with the curse !!"
I wasn't expecting this and was no words to give back as answer .
All i said was , " You too are leaving , now i'll be alone"
With this i really felt , it was something that wasn't in my hand .
If i am meant to be alone , i can't change it .
I accompany him to the place he had to onboard from to start his journey.
There was some time in his departure,
and he could rightly guess my situation.
He told me , you will get over it, trust me , you are brave enough to balance your life
with or without her memories.
I still couldn't feel right about myself . I feared i'll break my promises .
I'll try and be with her . won't be able to forget her !!
Maybe i won't be there , when he comes back !!
He boards to start his journey !!.
and he bade me GOODBYE
Moving out of the place , after he left
I looked for a medium to reach my own place.
I was sure,
As I can't live alone but there is no alternative .
Because in the end , they would leave after knowing about the curse !!
I am lost to making my ends meet !
I am still not over her
maybe because i fail to believe in the cause of our separation
even now , when only her memories mark her presence in my life .
I am not able to meet her, call her , greet her .
I am revoked of the happiness , I think i had grabbed onto with her being a part of my life.
But now i fail to make a promising appearance in the world
which never fails to remind me of her !!
Like its someone who feels happy , seeing me looking for her face
in the crowd !!
Like a mad , i move to places unknowingly of the reason
what makes me go that way !!
I fear the curse , and don't want to anyhow initiate it again.
Nor i can live without seeing her .
I had promised him, i won't see her ever again .
he is someone who guides my path , saving me from curse i carry.
he doesn't wished for such a promise to make it easier for me, but for her.
he knows i can't be healed , never ever there will be a possibility that i ll be fixed
for what all wrong happened .
He knows i have no other option , than to be FOREVER-ALONE.
That's the only way it seems to him , i can live a little happier life.
i am still struggling with reasons to hold onto this world
and he knows !!
The wounds the body carried have healed but the marks are still there.
They remind me of the circumstances i had to faced, bring back all those memories .
and i am lost to pain.
he came and blessed me by putting his hand over my head.
and
He said , " I need to leave now , but i'll be back the next time you'll up with the curse !!"
I wasn't expecting this and was no words to give back as answer .
All i said was , " You too are leaving , now i'll be alone"
With this i really felt , it was something that wasn't in my hand .
If i am meant to be alone , i can't change it .
I accompany him to the place he had to onboard from to start his journey.
There was some time in his departure,
and he could rightly guess my situation.
He told me , you will get over it, trust me , you are brave enough to balance your life
with or without her memories.
I still couldn't feel right about myself . I feared i'll break my promises .
I'll try and be with her . won't be able to forget her !!
Maybe i won't be there , when he comes back !!
He boards to start his journey !!.
and he bade me GOODBYE
Moving out of the place , after he left
I looked for a medium to reach my own place.
I was sure,
As I can't live alone but there is no alternative .
Because in the end , they would leave after knowing about the curse !!
