"Unable to Move On..."

Sitting somewhere is me , all by myself and a handful of memories
left by her ..

I just keep on rewinding them , just to be assured she was there...
as everything she said in the end ....left me nothing to offer

With the curse over now...its return is yet years to pass by

I survived it , but the realization of everything costed me my senses, the need to be around everyone
and even maybe everything my life held onto in her absence....

I am there ....realizing her dreams...
as if i was re-living those moments again...

Suddenly a boy ...comes from now-where and sits beside me.......
a small-kid....must be in the playway ofcourse...

He seemed upset , annoyed from something .
I could not see him like that ...so started a conversation with him..

What's your name boy ?
He first looked at me.....and then asked me "Did you forgot me "?

Sorry i replied, my memory isn't helping me with remembering people these days.....
Forgive me...

Its okk, Btw I am your heart..

What ?
I thought he joked at first...
But then he just let me know everything..about me

I replied.." That everyone knows..as i blog about it , you must have read my blog..and got to know all this."

he told me everything i haven't told anyone.....yet

then i had to believe it .

Why are you here ?? i asked in my own anxiety...and why in this form?

you thought of something i don't agree to, so thought i should separate myself from you...

What ? i didn't thought anything of that sort , that you may disagree to.

You did , he replied...
You thought of moving on in life, leaving everything behind.....
Her memories..
and everything related to her......

I don't have a choice ...she has moved on ..and now i am forced to..
i replied...

So, what if she has...her heart must have allowed her , her feelings for you must have died..
but i am not ready, i still await her....and your feelings haven't died yet.....

But i will now...as i don't want to be around her ...
affecting her in any way.....i was all left alone to fight the curse...
if the curse would have done anything wrong to me or to anyone..
what would i have left with ...i had to keep myself alone for all that time..
knowing that i'll loose everything.

Whatever be your reason, i respect that
but i am still awaiting her ...no matter what.

I moved from the bench  to down on my knees , to make him understand ....

I did all what i could do.
Agreed to all what you said ,
believed in everything you said ..that she is not the one who could be mean and call upon all that
, she couldn't cheat someone..

And i even waited for her , for six months ...by being around her
and again some time more by being totally absent from her life......
as she asked me to.
But she didn't returned ...
if she had to, she must have....

Maybe you won't have tried ....and she must have been waiting for you to try atleast once.....
I'll try.....
and i am not going anywhere without her.....

I asked him again, Are you coming with me ??
He moved away ..as i stretched my hand towards him....

i asked him to listen to me.....
"okay tell me what would you do ?"
to bring her back...."
even i need to know the reason like what are you upto, to decide if its worth staying.

he thought for a while .....
and said " I don't know.."

I looked at him and smiled...

But atleast i'll try ....i can ask my friends(other hearts) to help me reach her heart...
Maybe i can make her heart understand and make it believe in my words
and can make her comeback....he said..so excitedly..

That means you are not coming with me.....?
i inquired him again

No , he replied...

i started walking away.....as i felt helpless in making him understand.

after moving some distance , i hide behind a tree.....

unable to see me ..around
heart felt a little restless....

I was eying on him....from a distance.....

In a while, i saw him crying
i felt bad and walked back to him...

Seeing me ...he just huggged me.....
and said " Everyone leaves me alone, when its even not my fault.
I fell in love as its not under my control , but they can stay and not leave when the wish to stay or leave is
all under their control.

I wiped the tears falling down from his eyes.....
and
said " I promise you i won't move on until you ask me to "

"We would try and bring her back "...he added.

he hugged me....
and was happy...

But only i understood the importance of the promise i made to him...
I gave it all ...for the happiness for him(my heart).